26 April 2009


For those of you who suffer from migraines, I am sure you know my pain. I have had a migraine since Friday and no amount of rest, water, drugs or food has helped. The only thing that seems to help is putting pressure on the bridge of my nose. However, if I move it starts hurting again. At this point, I am just going to have to push through the pain because I cannot afford to be out of commission for much longer.

On Friday I got myself a Blackberry Curve! I won enough money at the casino the night before to finally get one. I am so in love with it and it comes in so handy for making sure I stay connected to my emails, etc. I am still getting used to it. Hopefully when Hubby gets home he will find a Blackberry he likes too.

I am so excited for this weekend. On Thursday I am going to my parents house so that my Mom and I can go see the midnight showing of Wolverine. I think other people are going with us as well, just not sure who at this point. I have been waiting for this movie to come out for ages. Wolverine is one of my favorite comic book characters.

Well, I really can't think of much to write today thanks to the pounding behind my eyes. Hope everyone is doing well.

18 April 2009

Eight Months

Another milestone down in this deployment, we have hit eight months. I have been spending the day immersed in Dark Hunter novels. I am on my third one and am so excited to read about my favorite character, Acheron Parthenopaeus. Reading has definitely been keeping me distracted today and its a good thing to since its been a couple of days since I heard from Hubby.

I am starting to get excited for his homecoming. At the same time, I am trying not to get too excited because I don't want to feel like these next however many months are dragging. Deployments are already wicked hard and I don't want to do too much to add to the stress of them. I have started to do some planning, outside of buying shoes, etc to go with my dress. Its mostly just thinking about things because I have really no clue what he would like this time he comes home. I have a feeling this deployment was harder on him than the last one.

I am going to do everything I can to keep myself busy over the next several months. Luckily a lot of my favorite authors are coming out with new books. I also have school for the times in between reading about vampires, lycanthropes, Greek gods, Atlantean's and romance. Those are just a few of the characters in various books lol.

I have said a few times that this year is going to be one of the better ones and I still feel that way. I just wish we could start having some of the better parts to distract me.

14 April 2009

A Giant Ball Of Emotion

*Takes Deep Breath*

I am so out of it right now. This deployment is really starting to get to me. Its been almost eight months now. Eight months without my husband by my side, of worrying, of stress and fighting because of stress. I just want this to be over with already.

I try to keep myself busy and its just not working well for me. I had a routine that I followed and its basically gone out the window. Lately, I wake up feeling like I have not slept at all. I basically wake up exhausted. I cannot remember the last time I had a dream either, which probably explains the always being exhausted feeling.

Thanks to this lovely feeling of perpetual exhaustion, I have the brain power of a flea. I cannot concentrate on anything, even my favorite books. I really need to write two papers and finish reading a couple of books for school. Yet, every time I try its like I hit a wall...repeatedly.

I tried to spend a day vegging out and it did not work. I don't know what to do. I feel so lost.

04 April 2009

To My Hubby

I miss you and cannot wait until you come home. I am sorry we had a bad day together. Hopefully we can work it out next time you call.

01 April 2009

I Miss Hubby

Today is the start of a new month, meaning we are closer to another month done with this deployment. Hubby's birthday is coming up this weekend and once again he will not be home. Or get the present right on his birthday. Its so depressing to not be able to spend his day with him or to be able to cook something special for him.

I am really ready for this deployment to be over with. I just want to get back to my life WITH my husband. I miss doing things together. Even simple things like grocery shopping or making cookies. I miss having to kick his butt out of bed because he likes to hit the snooze button over and over again. I also miss making love to my husband.

Today probably would not have been so bad if I had something to do. I am waiting on a school book to come to finish off some assignments. I might pull out and reread a series for the third time since the new book comes out later this month. That would keep me occupied.

I just need to wait for this crap mood to pass.